Monday, January 21, 2008

Aiya... sian... this morning went to TCM for dad's "check up". Heard that the sinseh scolded my dad for pulling such a long face (cancer patients need to be cheerful). Before that I was already pulling a really really long face. Guess it affected the family in some way. But they really made me soooo angry. First mum ask me to get out of the car faster to hold on to dad when he comes out of the car to walk to the TCM clinic.

Bro came getting all frustrated because I left my finished Vitagen on the seat, where a little of the contents spilled onto it.

Mum said "you should have taken it out what. Is your handphone more important?" In terms of asset value, naturally i'd say of course it is. And i did, and added "gor is parking his car so he can throw it away after that what."

Mum scolded "can you be a little more responsible!"

What the heck. Ask me to do this, then scold me for not doing another thing. In terms of actions, if i'd be holding that dumb bottle, would i be able to grab hold of my dad if he ever falls? As for my phone, i put it inside my pocket, so you can't compare an empty bottle and a handphone in the first place.

And after that we went to FairPrice Finest to get some groceries. Mum asked me to walk slowly with dad, bro asked me to push the trolley. OF COURSE I'D REJECT THAT. When it comes to all this, i'd rather be helping my dad who's weak now. Priority goes to him. In fact i didn't even bother to reply my bro, because i'd ask the same question. If i'd be pushing that trolley, would i be able to grab hold of my dad if he ever falls? Like duh that i'm not trying to curse or something, but what if it really happens? Luckily he didn't question me as to why i didn't push the trolley around FOR THEIR OWN CONVENIENCE. All humans are selfish, it's just on whom they are putting their selfishness on, and unfortunately, it's on me. Because i'm the youngest, i'll always have to take the blame.

Take this for example:

mum: can you all please put the things back into the same place? there's always no scissors in the drawer.

And guess what. It always happens.

bro: it's not my fault what. I don't use the scissors.

mum: i'm just trying to tell you all that in future please put the things back to its usual place, it doesn't mean you right.

bro: ya la. it's not my fault. it's ah ling's (my house nick). Always anyhow put.

Whatever. I just kept quiet. It doesn't matter if i explain or not. 'Cos the fault always ends up as mine.

Another scenario. When we were parking the car, quite close to another on my side, and i happen to drop my phone (i really did. it had a crack. T-T) while opening the door, whose fault is it? Is it my fault for having butter fingers, or should i blame my brother for parking too close to the next car and because i was trying hard to open the door carefully so as to prevent the door from hitting it, i dropped my beloved phone?

There are always 2 sides of a coin, it just depends of which side you want it to be Heads or Tails. Ok dumb analogy, but i think that's true. In this case no one's actually right or wrong, but in the above incidents that really made me pull a long face, i think my side of the story should win the vote.
Went to put on a cute Schnauzer cover seat for the car today. I'll show you the picture, it looks really good in our car, but i think it's really dumb.

Bro told me about he and mum's plan to change the fabric seats to leather ones last week, and it costs $1000+. However this Schnauzer cover seat only cost around $179. Ok, so it's cheaper, but the whole thing about CHANGING is to have a CLEANER car environment for my dad since there are some spills (spills may look as if someone had just vomitted, and will make ppl wanna vomit just by looking at it. from my point of view) on the seats itself (the car still looks new althou it's 2 years old already), and definitely not HIDING it and let those spills be under that cute layer. What's more the saleslady said it can be used for about 2 to 3 years. Oh great, so we're gonna leave the spilled patches underneath for the next 2 years. How's that. So clean and healthy. So DECEIVING rather.

I know they won't matter if you clean it thoroughly although they still leave a mark and you may think i'm a paranoid about this stuff, but if we can change it, why not? Afterall, everyone says this "money doesn't really matter because health comes first." If you are already at the stage of trying to get back your health, why do people still treat it as if that money is running away from them?

Human beings really like to contradict themselves, and they really confuse paranoids, especially those paranoids who always have to take the blame.

Oh and guess what. I punched my brother. It felt good, it wasn't a hard punch though, but it felt good. Not that i'm violent, but it's he who started it. He did some kicking actions in front of me to provoke me. Ok. So i'm violent, but it's just once. From now on, i'll just keep quiet.

Aaah... 2 more days to the release of O level results. Maybe because of this, i'm having a little depression. After all, i may be the youngest in my family, but i'm the oldest in my batch of cousins.

I have 2 cousins who are born in the same year as me. Since i'm the first to be born in that year, i'm the oldest. Because of this, it makes it easier for parents to compare by looking at PSLE results, which secondary school we go to, and of course, from the upcoming O level results. And naturally, the older one should perform better.

Craaap. But i happen to be the dumbest. How how how. Old but dumb. They are smart. And i mean 6 points raw score that kinda smart. Dang... Relatives are gonna gossip. ><

Before results come out, parents usually say "as long as you've tried your best, whatever results you get, it's ok." But after that, "WHY LIKE THIS? WHY LIKE THAT? HOW COME THEY CAN DO BETTER? WHY ARE YOU SO FREAKING STUPID?" And siblings stand beside them harmonizing "Ya lor. Give up la. You've got no more future."

Alamak... I already have these in my mind. Will I really get sucky results? I dreamt I got 43 points leh. Why was this dream so specific? Will it come true? Scared... scared........ T-T

I've been watching Lovely Complex (anime) these few days. Just a recommendation. You all can watch it at http://www.veoh.com/. (youtube and crunchyroll banned it.) Their way of drawing is a little simpler (that's what i think), but they really did well in terms of drawing their every emotions. The lead female character can look quite ugly for some expressions, but i think she looks nice generally. She's too tall though. 172cm!!! =S

Oh yeah. Their first starting and ending songs are sang by TegoMass. Really fits!!! A must-watch anime.

Tearing parts: 4/5
Funny parts: 4.5/5
Story line: generally draggy. but your heart feels like a kinda liquid just went into it or something, to make it ache, during the loving scenes.
Overall: you judge it yourself. XD

{I wrote my precious moments at 11:51 PM}

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